Blog entry...last entry..

Yeap im taking this blog down with me..so cheers to do those who actually read any of my posts..im sorry i wasted some of ur time and u can never get it back. So now im closing this down.. Thank you people. Goodnight.

Over at last.(and so i thought)

The fight is over. Only an empty field of despair remains. For the seed of new beginning has yet to grow. ^ ^ ^ How i wish i could say that to myself. But im still unsure or rather im actually still fighting inside. And i hope that it would just end. Let me rest. Let me be able to fill the void inside me. I know i know..the post doesnt make sense at all. I actually i wanted to write that the fight inside me was over..and as i started writing..i realized it wasnt over yet. END IT ALREADY!! I guess its just a random post.

Leaving Baguio with a head throbbing.

So should i say i left with grace or with disgrace? hmmmm well watever.. Anyways, i stopped school and left Baguio for good. I'd say i left for a very reasonable reasons..College is just too dangerous for me right now, well in Baguio anyways..and for other particular reasons.. So we had a little party..well a drinking party actually..Redhorse, Bora(emperador+coffee+milk), Blue gin..and i think der was another drink but i cant remember so yea..ohh and did i mention i was the only guy around:D:D hahaha Well, 6 girls and one guy..who wouldnt wanna be in my sit huh??:D:D man it was great as in really great..hahaha im just not close with guys so yea..being close with alot of girls is very good..hahha yes i know, im showin off..but hey its not like im fooling around with them kay..well its not like i cant do it..more like i dont want to..hahahaha for now i value more about my friendship than my eagerness to fool around..LoL..nyahaha Did i mention that someone confessed about how she wants to fill that hole inside my so-so called heart?(i just found out that it can never be filled,im sorry) Well that part was very very emotional..as in really..i mean like, everyone was talking, laughing and it was so noisy..then out of the blue she started crying, then silence....then the confession...woaahh..that was really unexpected..Unexpected because who would have thought that someone would actually fall for me, after all the dramas i've been through..hmmm she was probably just drunk.. Anyways, i said what i needed to say to her..but mind you, it felt like my heart was being ripped open seeing her cry..I DO NOT LIKE TO SEE A GIRL CRY..yea! Im so sorry..really sorry..she does actually know that ders still that someone who still occupies my wrecked heart(i seriously dont wanna say 'heart') They told me that they learned alot from me..about my ways..and i seriously dont know what else:D but oh well..i'd gotta say its actually the opposite..without them, i'd have completely screwed my life up. As in really fucked it up..well its semi-screwed up at the moment..Semi.. So we drank till around 1am in the morning..i guess its safe to say that all of us were drunk..just right drunk..sent everyone home, then slept at my aunt's place. *ME SLEEPING ON FLOOR IS SERIOUSLY A NO NO..It was freakin cold..* As you've guessed bloggers..i had a few drinks..not afew but alot actually..hahahah night nightz.. *Does anyone even read this blog* hmmmmm watever..goodnight.

Merry Christmas and a crappy New Year!

Okey i know its delayed..but i've been really busy lately and i got alot of things to take care of..as of now im still busy and im trying my best to update this so called blog of mine.. Christmas at first was supposedly fun but it all turned out to be a disaster when my friends came over at my place..my dad was so pissed about it because where the heck am i gonna put 16 people in my place..different kinds of alcohol and bottles were everywhere..my house turned into a barhouse for god's sakes..all stereos were at full volume and we were so freakin noisy..eventually we got kicked out of the house:D:D hahhaha.. Anyways, we continued outside the garden..and 7 of my friends were sleeping outside..and the rest i have no idea:D:D hahhaa..and in the morning all of us had to do a very stupid "General Cleaning" nyahahaha and seriously it was a disaster..my dad wouldnt even speak to me:D okey im tired now..i'll update post again soon:D:D

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so i cant write anything right now..my so called head is very very intoxicated by alcohol as of now..so im going to sleep..i'll write tomorrow..for sure..its been a very blasted week i had..so its gonna be worth it, writing something about it..and so im off to sleep..seriously i must..nyahahha goodnight. SWEETDREAMZ!

a week to remember..

Pheww finally a post..its been awhile i guess..its a special week entry so yea..here we go.. 09/11/08, Sunday- 6.20pm Just woken up from a really long sleep..feeling abit woozy and kinda heavy on the shoulder. Felt like shit to summarize that and a broken/bruised right fist. Skipped two meals so was really hungry but i ate so little, my stomach wasnt ready for food intake that day..so i stayed in bed, staring at my phone hoping for something to happen but im not really sure what it was.. Probably an hour passed, i got up then went to the kitchen to look for food..some fried chickens on the table, sat down and ate. Left the dishes on the sink and went back to my temporary room, then dragged myself to the bathroom. Had shower. Alot of things went thru my head..couldnt be bothered anymore..i felt like shit anyways so i just savored the soft beating of water over my head. Sat down on the bathroom floor, dont know why i did that..Few minutes later, got up and washed, dried myself. Changed. All day i was feeling so gloomy..didnt have the mood to do anything..so i went back to bed. Tried to sleep but i couldnt..later that night called dustin thru skype..and just talked, freakin guy was drinking:) 10/11/08, Monday- 1.46am At about 2am, took a shower again and got ready to leave for Baguio. My uncle who drives a motorcycle picked me up, sent me to the bus station. Waited for awhile then got on a bus. Tried sleeping during the trip but i still couldnt and i still have class at 7.30 in the morning. Arrived in Baguio at about 6.15am, then to the apartment at about 6.30. Still have alot of time to spare so i opened my newly bought book and started reading. Then eventually went to school at about 7.15. Chris was late, so chatted with the DOTA boys..Clarence was in the good mood that day, he tried cheering me up but failed, but its okey. Thank you. A new math teacher came in, his abit on the weird side. Looks like a nerd, lame when he makes a joke, but funny because his lame. Didnt do much during class, thank god the teacher was just so into his so called story coz it was really painful to write anything. After class, went back home and rested for awhile. Next class was at 5 so i've got alot of free time. Actually took the liberty of cleaning the whole apartment..sweeped and mopped the floor, took the garbage out then remade how my room looks like. 4.34pm, went to class..nothing interesting to tell really..then after my last class which was at 7..went home, i ate and then i slept. 11/11/08, Tuesday- 8.45am Woke up..still have the most depressing feeling ever, hanging around my shoulder. Went straight to the shower, didnt even bothered or cared how freezing the water was..Dressed myself up, no breakfast, straight to school. Had P.E class at 7.30, was assigned as a leader for group 4. Just about that i guess. Then had class at 10.30..an IT class, we only did basic typing. After class went home and slept. Woke up at about 6.14 or around 6.20pm i think..anyways, was so hungry..so i made myself dinner and ate. After that, went to the store and bought two bottles of jumbo redhorse. Was really in a good condition that night, finished both bottles and straight to bed. Was actually watching Madagascar 2 but i forgot what it was all about due to alcohol:) 12/11/08, Wednesday- 10.47am I missed my 7.30 class that morning, i felt like so fucked up..bad headache, stomache ached. I threw up twice..first was just the food i ate the night before..second was very unexpected, it actually scared the crap outta me..it was blood, quiet alot actually and it felt like my throat was being ripped out. I actually just stared at it, stunned at the amount of blood i puked out. It wasnt suppose to be that much..hmmmm That day, i didnt eat at all..except a few biscuits and coke. Went to class at 5 then finishes at 7. Went home depressed. Im gonna stop here now..gonna sleep for awhile then wake up at 2am to get ready for the trip back to Baguio. Night night bloggers.

Going back to where I belong:D:D

And so the title says..yeap going back to Brunei tomorrow:D cant wait to see you guys! nyahahahha

Just some random post..